2011 - 2012

Part of me continues to expect there to be an actual stopping point where I can look back and really see how far I have come and how different I feel.
But that moment never comes the way I expect it to.
I wouldn't be able to join the bandwagon of 2011 being absolute greatness from start to finish.
Good and bad. Happy, sad. Terrified then confident.
Lessons learned, still learning.
And this time around, I feel even less compelled to make a plan or declaration for this new year suddenly upon me.
Here we are, here I am. Things never stop, things are never clear.
These days I am most often happy, calm, contented.
(Grateful and lucky).
But there will always be confusion and curiosity.
Things will always change.
I will always be looking back.

Happy New Year to me.